Kurt Cobain's Journals

Yeah punctuation, I was stoned alot when I was learning that stuff. (3)

I like playing my cards wrong. (98)

I’m not well read, but when I do read, I read well. . . . I purposely keep myself naïve and away from earthly information because it’s the only way to avoid a jaded attitude. Everything I do is internally subconscious because you can’t rationalize spirituality. (114-15)

My parents owned a compact stereo component system molded in simulated wood grain casing and a 4 record box set featuring AM radio’s contemporary hits of the early seventies called ‘good vibrations’ by Ronco. It had such hits as Tony Orlando & Dawn’s “Tie a Yellow Ribbon” and Jim Croche’s Time in a Bottle. . . . I cried to “Seasons in the Sun.” . . . In 1976 I found out that the Beatles had been broken up since 71. My parents got a divorce so I moved in with my dad into a trailer park. . . . My dads friends talked him into joining 18 Composition Studies COMPOSITION'S EYE/ORPHEUS'S GAZE/COBAIN'S JOURNALS 19 the Columbia record club and so records showed up at my trailer almost once a week accumulating quite a collection by 77. (150-51)

Whithin the months between October 1991 thru december 92 I have had 4 four notebooks filled with two years worth of poetry and personal writings and lyrics stolen from me at seperate times. . . . I’ve never been a very prolific person so when creativity flows, it flows. I find myself scribbling on little note pads and pieces of loose paper which results in a very small portion of my writings to ever show up in true form. It’s my fault but the most violating thing ive felt this year is not the media exagerations or the catty gossip, but the rape of my personal thoughts. ripped out of pages from my stay in hospitals and aeroplane rides hotel stays etc. I feel compelled to say fuck you Fuck you to those of you who have absolutely no regard for me as a person. (249)